Private vs. Public

Private Pros

• I can talk trash about anyone I please & not get caught.
• I can post freely without restrictions
• No pics would save a lot of time since uploading takes FOREVER.
• Less personal
• I can just blog to blog without a face

Private Cons

• I wouldnt get to meet all you wonderful bloggers on a personal level.
• I wouldnt have as much fun. I dont know if you have noticed but I am not the best writer and sometimes I like to do awards, or surveys and on a private I am not sure that I would enjoy those things as much.
• I cant tweet, FB, or myspace blog updates!

Public Cons

• I cannot talk trash about anyone I please.
• I may loose track about what I really come on here to do because I am being censored
• People always have SOME kind of comment. When I vent/whine its because I am at a low and dont need it to be thrown in my face when I am over that low. Or they mock me & what I do on here.

Public Pros

• I can put a picture to my shananigans.
• More material.
• I dont have to censor and re read, so I dont muck up and put names or get too personal
• I get to meet amazingly wonderful gals.
• I get the most amazing support.

I have been thinking about this for a few days now. I get a lot of grief for ALL my social networking (Twitter, Myspace, Facebook) But after all the pondering I am thinking I am ok with it all being out there. WHO CARES what people say or think because this makes me happy =) SO I am here to stay get used to it or DONT READ it! B***tch*s!

K. I am done. =D

Now Back To Our Regular Programming

I am broke.

Not just a little broke like flat broke.

I am the kind of broke where I have about $100 in gift cards & curse them because they say NO CASH VALUE.

I am so broke I loose sleep.

I am in stress mode. I call and check my balance way too much hoping no one took out any money such as my netflix, or this podcast I subscribe to but never listen to, or some gas station that hasnt taken out their funds yet! (whats with that anyway? IT TAKES FOREVER)

I calculate over & over my next check and what has to be paid & what cant wait two weeks later for my next paycheck. And I hate it. I feel like a loser. Here I am working full time making way more than minimum wage and I broke.

Its embarrassing. I get questions like where does your money go?! Its not like you have a car payment. or car insurance to pay. & they are right I dont. My money goes to Starbucks yup $5-$10 a day. It makes me feel better. HEY it could be worse like drugs or alcohol. & my money also goes to lunch because I am too lazy to make a homemade lunch. My bank history is embarrassing. It goes like this:
Starbucks
Starbucks
McDonalds
Jack In The Box
Starbucks
In n Out
Starbucks
Taco Bell.
 No wonder I am fat.

I always say to myself well its cheaper to eat unhealthy than to eat healthy. But its not. I have no one to blame but myself.

Dont get me wrong My rent is always paid and on time. My utilities are always paid. My cell phone never gets shut off. But after that I am flatlined. I have no extra money. I have nothing to save.

Our apt needs SO many things its depressing to think about it all and know I cant do it.

Most of all I feel bad for my BF not only does he have to support me when I go broke but he has to deal with my drama. my woe is me pity party. I wish I could help him more. I work his car to the bone yet I cant help him pay his car note or his insurance. or help him fix his oil leak. The only thing I can do is fill up the tank(because I use all the gas) and wash and vacuum his car. I feel lame. and a little pathetic.

& dont even get me started on my debt! I get at least 4 medical related bills a week. Please pay or else! or else what!?!? you'll take me for everything? I HAVE NOTHING to give.

The End.

Christmas Pt. 3. The final one.

After a wardrobe change back at my apt we went to get pies & headed over to the BF's dad's house. He wasnt feeling to well so I waited outside while the BF gave him our present. Then we left. NEXT we went to the BF's aunts house. I thought things might be a lil awkward because last minute they decided to just play a christmas bingo game as their presents but we had already bought all of ours & specially picked them out for each person. There was NO way I was going to put those gifts in to a "raffle" of sorts. It wasnt awkward until the very end. But we managed. I dont give gifts to get gifts. I give them so that persons know I wuv them (awwww=D) ANYWAY The house smelled yummy! The kitchen was in full business! with lots of food. We turned on the Laker Game (for the BF of course! otherwise he would have literally cried.haha) and ate. I obviously am not as comfortable to take a million pics like I did at my moms but I did manage to catch a few action shots.

Some of the BF's Family The BF, his brother Oscar, Me,The BF's mom, & cousin.

The game we spent most of the day playing. No one told the BF that there was a 5 dollar max! So obviously our prizes were the best! =D

We all took turns calling the cards! It was tough because we also wanted to win! haha. The two on the left are the BF's Brothers and that beautiful lady is his cousin.

The BF's Mom! We had to keep an eye on her! She was sneaky lol

This was JUST before she was disqualified from that round! The look of innocence haha dont be fooled!

THe BF's Brother Michael. He didnt win until almost the end! after everyone had already won twice! Ha. Poor guy.

The BF's Aunt Hilda. She was too adorable. Once she won before everyone else but didnt know it! =D

THE END.

Christmas Morning Pt. 2

After the BF & I opened our gifts to each other we headed over to my moms house. We grabbed some donuts and were there in no time thanks to empty freeways! =D My mom made breakfast and we opened our gifts and watched the latest version of Harry Potter. I love going to my moms christmas morning because I can stay in my PJs! literally. Every year from as far back as i can remember we always wear matching christmas pjs! one day I will share with you all the embarrassing pics(one year we wore footsie pjs yup like babies lol)
Anyway this year it was my moms turn & she was on a budget so we just got matching big tshirts and wore black leggings. It didnt matter I still loved it! Apparently my parents only got a tree for me! so they waited til the night of christmas eve & got one for free! & yes it was legal haha it was a ginormous tree. but very cute nonetheless. At my moms I scored a very soft warm sweater, a fabulous new purse, some more kitchen stuff (apparently the BF got her on HIS side haha) some warm comfy slippers and some smell good stuff. Here are some pics =D

My brother Christian happily buried in all his gifts

My stepdad & brother Eric with their goodies.

He is such a sweetheart! <3

SNUGGIE!  He has wanted one FOREVER!

SNUGGIE PARTY haha my family & I were laughing so hard we cried when they were dancing and hugging in these!

My beautiful mom and BF

Me & My Mommy

Our Family! <3

Christmas Morning

Christams was incredibly awesome. The BF & I had 3 differnt christmas celebrations. So I will post 3 different times about how each went and of course overwhelm you with pics! Christmas morning the BF & I woke up terribly early to open our gifts to each other. After I made some hot chocoloate we tore into them. I got some pretty amazing stuff. A foot spa. A Printer. Wall Art. An Electric mixer. A slap chop.(I am sensing a get your tushie in the kitchen kind of theme.) I got Stephanie Taner Jodi Sweetin's "tell all" book.  A bluetooth. A Jupiter Jack. and a Starbucks thermos. =D

Hot Choclate.

Scrabble's Gift. He went crazy all morning.

The BF spoiled me this Christmas =)

Dont worry I spoiled him too =)

Damn Tape. ;)

Stocking goodies! :O)

One of my gifts.Wall Art. Gerber Daisies are my fav =)

Merry Christmas!!!

I really need to learn

The word NO.....

No I dont want a design on my toes

No I dont want the special lotion that will make my feet softer than a babys a**

No I dont want the pink gel, my nails are already fake enough.

No I dont want extra cheese, the 1000 calories I already have on my plate are just fine.

No I dont want to by cheap candy from your kid for his field trip to the zoo.

No I dont want to to go somewhere I am 1000% uncomfortable, I could just go to church for that.

No I dont want to get up at 6am on my day off I prefer Noon Thirty like back when I was 19,20,21, & 22.

No I dont want to go to lunch with you, you talk to much.

I JUST CANT SAY NO. 

Which ends up making me one pretty unhappy lady! I need to enroll in a class called "How To Be A Bitch &  not Care 101" Pronto.

Happy Hump Day!! I have a half day tomm and then party time =D